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I'm in the school library with nothing to do. I'm soo bored!I don't have any homework really I have nothing to do but sit here for an hr and be online til my time is up then sit in the chairs doing nothing waiting for my 11 o'clock class to start.I wish I had a laptop so i can be online for as long as I want. Maybe when we get back from Germany. We're going when school gets out.

Thrusday was our 8 months but we had to celebrate last night bc we were way too busy. We went to lunch and saw Prime. Great movie. I want it. Anyways, so it was fun! I don't have much to say. I only have 2 days off this weedk which was last night and Thursday. Thank God I'm not working on Thanksgiving. I would had a fit about it if they schedule me to work. I love the hoilday season! Shopping for Christmas, egg nog, singing Chrismas songs, and everyone decorated with lights and colors of red and green. It's hard  to not spend my money at the mall. So i just don't go really so I can't spend money. I'm trying to save it for Gremany.

Well anywho, I don't have much more to say.

I love you Bosko!~ashi xoxo

I don't know what to do anymore. The one guy I love the most and want to spend the rest of my life with just left. I'm alone, cold, and scared of what is going to happen next. He may never come back. I made huge mistakes and I tried to fix them but they just pushed him away each time I tried. All I can do now is curl up and cry my self to sleep. I'm sorry and I'm scared. I love you more then anything but you broke my heart to many times. I'm torn in between on what to do. My head says leave you alone forever but my heart says I love you forever. I want to love you forever but you won't let me.